forever till forever meets no end

Sunday, January 28, 2007 @5:14 PM

saturdays totally kill me.
wake up at 6 to chiong to school by 7 for cheerleading
after cheerleading hang around to help cheryl teach mass dance for awhile then chiong to crown centre for feng hua (chinese tution) from 11 to 1 then chiong for training at 2.

plus all the stress from school is totally killing me.
sometimes i think living in denial is easier then living in real life.

today had cat class which isn't exactly the most enjoyable class in the world since my teachers really enjoy calling me and disturbing me during class >.<
today one of my teachers commented that i looked so worried and i just started at him and went :" cause i am worried?"
and then when my group presented we got like 22/30 points compared to other groups who got like 27? i was kinda irritated cause my group usually can produce much better work or at least i know that i can produce for satisfactory work then that and it doesn't really help that certain members of my grouo don't help.
after we got our marks for our presentation i was kind of irritated because i think we could have done so much better.
and that presentation sort of rang a bell in me to wake up and buck up. i swear my standard compared to last year i feel has dropped so much. in terms of work and gym. i feel that the standard of the work i'm producing is dropping so much i'm really worried i won't get a good gpa.
it sucks.
i'm starting to think i can't study properly ,can't do gym properly, can't be a good friend, can't listen to my coaches and teachers properly. i can't do so many more things properly.
i really don't know what is happening to me.

and honestly where are you when i need your help?